I always expect too much from myself! I often see that other illustrators don't have children, instead they have dogs! I look at the body of work they are able to put out and I get itchy to do the same. I often fall short of what I know I can do because of other responsibilities I have in taking care of my daughter. For me, this is a real stumbling block. I often beat myself up knowing what I am capable of outside of motherhood.
On the other side, as a mother, I know this time is only temporary. Watching Hannah grow up reminds me that time is ticking quickly and soon she will off to school! I would be wrong to wish this time away because I will never get it back.
My career and motherhood is a constant power-struggle in my life. I can not lay down the illustration and photography. I also can not lay down motherhood - it's a 24/7 everyday commitment! Sometimes it's easy to feel a little hog-tied to the house. Bear in mind, my husband has never said or suggested in any way that I should be stuck in such a place. My brain just tells me that I should be the one at home if he's not going to be there! So, here I am.
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